Despair is the 18th episode of Season 15. It aired on November 5, 2020.
|There was something about being there... It felt pure.|
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DO NOT CHANGE!
Sam, Dean, and Castiel take Jack to the bunker control room, and Jack says that they have to get him outside so he can blow up as far away from them as possible. Jack insists that he doesn't want to hurt them, and Dean asks Sam if he can use one of Rowena's spells to stop Jack from self-destructing.
Billie arrives, holding a scythe, and says that they've done enough. She points out that they were so close, and the Winchesters tell her that Chuck set the whole thing up. Castiel begs Billie to stop Jack's self-destruction, and she says that she can't stop it but there is something she can do. Stepping forward, Billie teleports Jack into the Empty. The Shadow is there, in Meg's form, and Jack blows up.
Billie tells the trio where she sent Jack. She explains that the Empty was the only place that could absorb Jack's detonation, and tells them that it's done. Castiel wonders if Jack is dead, and Billie tells them that Jack might be. The Empty is vast enough to hold the explosion, but the Shadow will be pissed if it survives. Billie says that the Shadow has "beef" with Billie, but it can't come to Earth without being summons. The reaper says that she won't bring Jack back until Sam returns God's Book.
Sam figures that Billie was always going to betray them, and Billie was going to kill everyone that came from another world, and everyone that had been resurrected, including Sam and Dean. He wonders what would stop Billie from killing them all of he gives her the book, and Billie says that he doesn't have a choice. Jack won't last long and if they want Jack back, Sam needed to give her the Book immediately.
Jack finds himself unharmed in the Empty. The Shadow reforms in front of him, and is furious with Jack for blowing up.
Sam gets the Book and tosses it on the table in front of Billie. He joins Dean and Castiel, and Billie takes the Book and says that it has a new ending.
The Shadow pulls Jack to her and complains that he made it loud.
Billie finishes and says "Interesting".
Jack disappears from the Shadow's grasp and reappears in the bunker. Billie says that Jack is still useful and that he still belongs to her. Billie attempts to take Jack with her. Dean grabs her scythe and slashes her with it, and then Billie telekinetically knocks him back. She clutches at her wounded arm and teleports away without Jack. Jack collapses, and Sam picks up the Book but can't open it.
Later, Dean is drinking in the main room when Sam joins him. Sam admits that he couldn't sleep either and pulls up a chair, and the two brothers drink. Dean apologizes about what happened between them earlier, and says that he couldn't stop when they were so close to beating Chuck. Sam says that Dean has snapped him out of worse, and Dean figures that Chuck is probably more powerful than ever, Billie wants them dead, Jack is powerless, and Michael isn't returning their prayers. Sam figures that they'll regroup, but Dean isn't convinced.
Stevie is making eggs for Charlie, and Charlie finally puts away the gun that she's working on and takes the eggs. Charlie wants to go on a "date" hunting down some shifters, and digs into the eggs. Stevie suddenly disappears, her plate falling to the floor. Charlie calls her lover's name but gets no answer, and she calls in the Winchesters.
Charlie explains that Bobby sent Charlie to Stevie to back her up on a Djinn case, and they ended up together. She wonders why Stevie disappeared and not her, and Dean admits that they don't know why. Charlie says that she didn't see or smell anything, and realizes that the Winchesters know something.
Castiel and Jack are outside, and Castiel asks Jack how he's feeling. Jack says that he feels strange, but doesn't know why. He wonders if it feels strange because his destiny was to die and he didn't. Now Jack doesn't know why he's there, and Castiel tells him that he never needed absolution from any of them. The angel says that they care about Jack because he's him, not because he fits into some grand design.
Jack points out that he doesn't have his powers, and there's nothing he can do to protect them. He admits that he's scared, and Castiel admits that he is as well and puts a comforting hand on Jack's shoulder.
The Winchesters tell Charlie that Death wants to send everyone from other worlds back, to worlds that don't exist. They figure Stevie fits a pattern, and Charlie is angry that she let her guard down and loved Stevie, and now she's gone. She wonders if she and Charlie are collateral damage to them, and they have no answer.
Bobby calls Sam, then hangs up and says that Bobby was on a hunt with another Apocalypse World refugee Hunter, and he disappeared. Dean figures that everyone who has ever resurrected is on Billie's list, and Sam figures Eileen is a target.
The quartet drive to Eileen's, and Sam texts Eileen. He finally gets a response but then she cuts out in the middle of their texting. They get to Eileen's house and find Eileen's phone on the front lawn. cut off midway through a text to Sam. Sam refuses to give into his grief, then tells the others that they have to get a location central to everyone, gather them there, and put up every warding they can. Dean says that he started it so he'll end it, and he'll use Billie's scythe to kill her. Castiel goes with him, and Dean agrees. The brothers hug and Dean leaves with Castiel.
Sam stops at a gas station, calls Donna, who has found a place where all the survivors can gather. She wonders what the plan is, and Sam tells her that he's still planning on it while looking at Jack. Once Sam hangs up, he asks Jack to drive while he looks through the lore. Jack agrees and hesitantly starts the car and drives off.
Dean and Castiel return to the bunker and Dean grabs the scythe and says that they'll burn her books and wreck the place to smoke Billie out.
Jack and Sam arrive at the silo that Donna is using as a base. Donna greets them and as Jack goes in to set up the warding, Donna hugs Sam and offers her condolences on Eileen. She says that she has calls out to the other Hunters and they're all on high alert. As Donna goes inside, Charlie pulls up in a truck and tells Sam that she doesn't want what happened to Stevie to happen to anyone else.
Inside, Bobby and the other Apocalypse World Hunters have arrived. Sam comes in and Bobby tells Sam that he's the "big man" there. He wonders if the warding will work, and Sam has one of Rowena's spells that should boost the warding. He admits that it's all that he's got.
Donna finds Jack studying a break in the warding caused by a growing plant, and suggests that they patch it up. Once she leaves, Jack gestures at it and it dies, and realizes that his powers are coming back.
Dean and Castiel enter Billie's library, split up, and they find Billie waiting for them. Dean says that he wasn't trying to kill her the last time, and Dean points out that now she's killing all of her friends. he braces himself to attack, and Billie telekinetically knocks him back and then chokes Castiel. Dean grabs the scythe and cuts Billie in the arm. She manages to block the next blow, and Dean tells her to call it off. Billie says that she didn't hurt his friends, and he's in the wrong place.
Sam casts the spell to power the wardings. They glow with extra energy, and he says that now they're waiting.
Billie figures that Chuck is wiping out the alternate world refugees.
One refugee, Lily, disappears, and Sam realizes that the warding isn't working. The other refugees disappear, including Charlie and Bobby. Sam, Donna, and Jack are left alone. and after a moment Donna calls out to Sam terrified and disappears as well. Lastly, Bobby with a shocked look turns to Sam and vanishes.
Billie tells Dean that when he cut her earlier, she can't survive. She tells Dean that he killed her so she doesn't care about his friends or family. However, Billie says that she has one wish before she goes: she wants to see Dean dead. She disarms Dean and telekinetically blasts him and Castiel back. Dean and Castiel run into the stacks and go back to the bunker.
Sam and Jack look around the otherwise empty silo.
In the bunker, Dean tries to come up with an idea to stop Billie. He clutches at his chest in pain as Billie, up on the stairs, squeezes a fist. As Castiel leads Dean into hiding, Billie says that Dean is human disorder incarnate and she's always sought to destroy him.
Castiel takes Dean downstairs and Billie follows them. She asks if Dean finally agrees that it's time for the sweet release of Death. Castiel takes Dean into a storage room and makes a ward with his own blood to keep Billie out. She arrives at the door outside but can't enter, and the ward blocks her grip on Dean's heart.
Billie pounds on the warded door, and Dean figures that they can't wait her out. He figures that they just led themselves into another trap, because he couldn't hurt Chuck. Dean blames himself for not knowing how to do anything but kill, and figures they should be with Sam and Jack. He figures everyone is going to die and he can't stop it, and Billie will get through the door soon and kill first Castiel and then Dean.
Dean apologizes to Castiel, and Castiel has an idea of one thing that is strong enough to stop Billie. When Jack was dying, Castiel made a deal with the Shadow to save him. The price was Castiel's life: When he experienced a moment of true happiness the Shadow would come to take him. Castiel has never been able to figure out what would make him experience a moment of true happiness, because the one thing he wants is something he can't have. Now Castiel knows that happiness isn't in the having, but in just being and saying it.
Castiel tells Dean that he knows how Dean sees himself: "Daddy's Blunt Instrument". He says that everything Dean has ever done has been for love. Castiel tells Dean that he's the most selfless, loving human being he will ever know. The angel says that because Dean cared, he cared about the whole world, Sam, Jack, and Dean. Castiel tells Dean that he changed him, and says that this is a goodbye. He then says to Dean, 'I love you,' in the most soothing voice, tears streaming down his cheeks. Dean begs Castiel not to do what he is about to, but it's too late.
A portal to the Empty appears, and Billie breaks in. Castiel tells Dean goodbye and shoves him aside, and a black tendril reaches out from the portal and pulls Billie, and a smiling tearful Castiel into the Empty, leaving Dean alone in the Bunker.
Sam and Jack leave the silo, and Sam tries to call Dean but gets no answer. Jack wonders if was just refugees. Sam admits that he doesn't know. Across the world, everyone is gone.
Dean sits in the bunker and realizes that he's getting a call from Sam. He ignores it and drops the phone, sobbing.
- Jared Padalecki as Sam Winchester
- Jensen Ackles as Dean Winchester
- Misha Collins as Castiel
- Alexander Calvert as Jack
Special Guest Stars
- Lisa Berry as Billie
- Rachel Miner as The Shadow
- Felicia Day as Alternate Charlie Bradbury
- Briana Buckmaster as Sheriff Donna Hanscum
- Catherine Lough Haggquist as Jules
- Max Boateng as Warding Reaper
- Victoria Katongo as Stevie
- Jillian Walchuck as Lily's and Dana's Mom
- Sean Poague as Lily's and Dana's Dad
- Warren Abbott as Spencer
- Paolo Maiolo as Hunter
- Wolsey Brooks as Wounded Refugee Hunter
- Josh Chambers as Chambers
- Lillian Doucet-Roche as Hunter
- Emma Pedersen as Refugee Hunter
- Ava Grace Cooper as Lily
- Kerensa Cooper as Dana
Featured Supernatural Beings
- Archangel (Michael, mentioned only)
- Cosmic Entity (The Shadow)
- Djinn (mentioned only)
- Nephilim (Jack)
- Primordial Entities (God and the Darkness, mentioned only)
- Reapers (Billie, library reaper)
- Seraph (Castiel)
- Shapeshifters (mentioned only)
- Witch (Rowena MacLeod, mentioned only)
- Werewolf (Garth Fitzgerald IV, mentioned only)
- The Empty was previously seen in Destiny's Child.
- The Shadow previously appeared in Unity.
- In Advanced Thanatology, Billie previously tried to keep Death's Scythe away from Dean.
- Alternate Charlie Bradbury previously appeared in Optimism.
- Alternate Bobby Singer previously appeared in Jack in the Box.
- Donna Hanscum previously appeared in Damaged Goods.
- Jules previously appeared in Raising Hell.
- Stevie previously appeared in The Rupture.
- Garth Fitzgerald IV was mentioned. He previously appeared in The Heroes' Journey.
- Jody Mills was mentioned. She previously appeared in Galaxy Brain.
- Eileen Leahy was mentioned. She previously appeared in The Trap.
- This was the last episode filmed as a preventive measure for the ongoing COVID-19 pandemic.
- This was Richard Speight Jr.'s 11th and last episode as a director.
- Jack explodes, but Billie helps him survive by teleporting him to The Empty. The Shadow also survives the explosion.
- The Shadow implies that something horrible has happened as a result, stating that Jack "made it loud." Previously, the Shadow stated that it was silent because all of the angels and demons were sleeping, suggesting the explosion might have awakened some or all of the deceased angels/demons in the Empty.
- Billie reveals that killing Chuck and Amara would only be fatal because it would cause a chain reaction.
- She also mentions that the Empty/Shadow is not as strong as Chuck and Amara.
- Billie implies that the Shadow is in fact the embodiment of the Empty itself.
- Billie confirms that the Shadow told Sam the truth about her plans.
- Its mentioned that Jack is now powerless and Michael is not answering the Winchesters' prayers to him.
- Charlie has been dating Stevie, one of the hunters who aided the Winchesters in The Rupture.
- Jack mentions having driven only once before which occurred in Unhuman Nature.
- Castiel reveals his deal with the Shadow to Dean before allowing it to come due by revealing that he loves Dean.
- Castiel gets taken to the Empty as does Billie.
- Everyone from the alternate universes are dying, at first it was thought to be Billie, it turns out to be Chuck.
- By the end of the episode, everyone other than Dean, Sam and Jack are erased from existence.
- When Jack tries to touch a flower, it wilts at his approach similar to what happened when Amara touched flowers in Alpha and Omega after mortally wounding Chuck.
- When Castiel pushed Dean out of the way of The Empty, there's a hand print on Dean's jacket similar to the scar on Dean's arm and shoulder when Castiel got him out of Hell in Lazarus Rising. It is just the blood from Castiel's cut hand.
- When Billie chases after Dean and Castiel to the bunker, she makes Dean suffer a fatal heart seizure and says it's time for him to have the sweet release of Death. Dean's very first fatal brush with Death was in Faith when he was suffered fatal heart failure after being electrocuted before he was healed.
- Castiel is the only main character and only angel confirmed to have feelings for someone of the same sex after confessing his love for Dean.
- The nature of Castiel's feelings for Dean seem to have been hinted at before, in Season 13's The Big Empty, when the Shadow tells Castiel in a whispering voice that, "I know... who you love... There is nothing for you back there", in an attempt to get Castiel to quit from trying to get to Earth again and go back to sleep. Coincidentally, it is Castiel's confession to Dean that allows the Shadow to reclaim him again.
- Billie states that Chuck's Death Book, while altered since the Winchesters didn't have Jack explode on God and Amara, still has an ending. It is indicated that God can still be killed as Billie is satisfied with the contents of the book.
- Billie also indicates that Jack is still capable of killing God or at least playing a role in it, as she states that Jack is still useful
- This marks the second episode in the series that Dean has fatally wounded Death with the Death's Scythe. The first such episode was Brother's Keeper.
- After this episode aired, Lisa Berry shared a behind the scenes set of pictures on her twitter, revealing that she was visibly pregnant during the filming of this episode with "a little baby reaper on the way."
- Billie: I think you've done enough. We were so close.
- Dean: Chuck saw it coming, all of it, your whole plan!
- Sam: It was doomed...
- Billie: Because of you. It was doomed because of you.
- Castiel: Is he dead?
- Billie: Maybe.
- Dean: You said this was a suicide mission.
- Billie: No, I said taking out Chuck and Amara would be fatal.
- Castiel: It's a chain reaction.
- Billie: Mmmhmm. The Empty? It's... different. Not as strong as Chuck or Amara, but... vast. But if Jack survives and if the Empty survives? It's gonna be pissed.
- Sam: You were always gonna betray us. Once you defeated God, you were gonna take power. And that means everyone who got a free pass or a second chance, everyone who was resurrected or came from another world, you were gonna kill them all. Dean and me too. That's the order you want restored, that's always been your endgame!
- Billie: You got me.
- Castiel: You lied to everyone. Even the Empty, you promised it peace and quiet but you never meant it.
- The Shadow: You did this. You made it loud!
- Jack: I feel... strange. I don't know if that's because of what happened to me, if it means something, or if I just feel strange because... it's over. The plan. My destiny. I was ready to die and, I wanted to, for Sam, for Dean, for the world. I wanted to make things right, and now... I don't know why I'm even here.
- Castiel: Jack. You never needed absolution from Sam, or Dean, or from me. We don't care about you because you're useful or you fit into some grand design. We care about you because you're you.
- Jack: God, the Empty, Billie, everyone's so mad at us and I don't have my powers. There's nothing I can do to protect us. I'm scared, Cas.
- Castiel: I know. Me too.
- Dean: Let's go, Cas. Let's go reap a Reaper.
- Billie: So, I guess this the part where I say "hello, boys." Hello, boys. What's the plan? Take me down with my own weapon?
- Castiel: Something like that.
- Billie: Well, he better work on his aim.
- Dean: Thing is, that time, I wasn't trying to kill you.
- Billie: Hmm. What's changed?
- Dean: Oh, I don't know. Could be that you've started killing all my friends.
- Billie: Interesting.
- Billie: I'll let you in on something. When you cut me, that little nick? It was fatal, something I can't survive. See for yourself. You killed me, Dean. So yeah, no, I don't care about your friends. I don't care about your family. But seeing you here has reminded me of something. There is one thing I'd like. One wish before I go. I'd like to see you dead. I'm so glad you came.
- Billie: It's you, Dean. It's always been you. Death-defying, rule-breaking. You are everything I lived to set right. To put down. To tame. You are human disorder incarnate.
- Castiel: I've got you.
- Billie: Come on, Dean. You can't escape me. Don't you think it's finally time? Time for the sweet release of Death?
- Castiel: I always wondered since I took that burden, that curse, what it could be. What my true happiness could even look like. I never found an answer. Because the one thing I want...it's something I know I can't have. But I think I know...I think I know now. Happiness isn't in the having. It's in just being...It's in just saying it.
- Castiel: I know. I know how you see yourself, Dean. You see yourself the same way our enemies see you. You're destructive and you're angry and you're broken. You're -- You're "Daddy's Blunt Instrument." And you think that hate and anger that's -- that's what drives you. That's who you are. It's not. And everyone who knows you sees it. Everything you have ever done, the good and the bad you have done for love. You raised your little brother for love. You fought for this whole world for love. That is who you are. You're the most caring man on Earth. You are the most selfless, loving human being I will ever know. You know, ever since we met, ever since I pulled you out of Hell, knowing you has changed me. Because you cared, I cared. I cared about you. I cared about Sam. I cared about Jack. I cared about the whole world because of you. You changed me, Dean.
- Dean: Why does this sound like a goodbye?
- Castiel: Because it is. I love you.
- Dean: Don't do this, Cas. Cas.
- Castiel: Goodbye, Dean.
- Everything on Earth aside from the Winchesters and Jack