User blog:EmpyreanSmoke/Apology

Hello everyone, I know this is long overdue but I owe you an explanation and an apology. My behavior on this Wikia was childish and egotistical. While my intentions were mostly good in wanting to improve the Wikia, I let my own agenda get in the way of that happening and just ended up making messes. First of all, my friendship/feud with Imperiexseed was toxic and only brought chaos upon this site. After we ended our friendship a clear rivalry grew between us and we always had to top each other and draw each other out in arguments. To be completely honest this wasn't intentional on my part, and probably not on his part either, but non-the-less it existed subcontiously and caused trouble. My constant clawing to get a higher rank on the Wikia was probably the biggest problem I caused. I desperately wanted to be an admin and when I acheived that I wanted to become a bureaucrat. Several people on here told me that it was a "power grab" and that I wanted these positions for the authority only. I believed that I was going after them only to improve the Wikia, but I now see that you were right. While I did want to use the granted abilities to help make the Wikia better, in the back of my mind I liked the thought of being higher than normal users. I was being selfish and denying you, as well as myself, the true reason I was reaching for those titles. The final incident that I caused on this site was my Q&A blog. What I'm about to tell you about that blog is truth, whether you believe it or not is up to you, and I don't want to fight over it any longer. A friend of my family truly did join the writing team for Supernatural as a writer's assistant. I was finally able to ask all my Supernatural questions, and wanted to share that with you all, because I know that you are just as passianoate about the show. People starting asked me questions on the blog and I would text her to find out the answer and reply to the users. However, when more and more questions started being asked (the blog has over 400 comments", I didn't want to bother her with all of them. Instead of doing the mature thing and telling the Wikia to slow the questions down, I took matters into my own hand. With a lot of the smaller and repetitive questions, I didn't ask her the answer, but inferred from other things that she said, as well as my own knowledge of the show, and answered the question myself. When people started to say they would contact the CW about this I was scared that she might get in trouble over this. She had told me that I could not share any spoiler she gave me over the Internet, and so I didn't know what this entailed. That's why I claimed that I answered all the questions, and took the hit of losing my admin privlages and gaining a block.  I do not take these events lightly and know that you don't either, and so I present my sincere apology. I don't mean to bring up ancient history and disturb you all with what happened a year ago, but I needed to own up to my behavior and explain my actions. I hope that you can forgive me and that I might be able to edit on here again.